Songs: 2016​-​2020 (Demo Compilation)

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1.
The Bluebirds 03:59
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I’ve found myself a foreign thought The bluebirds of some distant melody I will take its body, at the steepest drop With all my strength destroy what that boy could break In a nightmare’s calm I was surrounded By a mountainous speck of dust And I felt I could confront it By the cold of his own lust How does it feel When you’ve reached my burdened hand? How long does the dew reside Before the sun would burn it’s peaceful place? Like some wistful breath at the mountainside Trying to find the scent of a better day The long trip to an ocean Wouldn’t brighten my bitter faith The struggled grasp of a wan hope Will be one I have to take How does it feel When you’ve reached my burdened hand? How does it feel When you’ve reached my burdened hand? I swore on Robin’s failing heart All the time that was spent with the moon and the dark A landscape of two loves fighting with thoughts Fleeting and restless, a frost on the foxgloves Nature was ours and the making was farce (How does it feel when you’re down?) We can mock the salvation when it knocks out the cards Waiting for the dim light, I’ll wait for the right time When you came back I can’t lie (How does it feel when you’re down?) I was so surprised when you laughed I was surprised (How does it feel when you’re down?) (How does it feel when you’re down?)
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The New Year 03:30
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By now it’s getting dark Better off if novelty won’t weigh my weary heart And wary thoughts, no mind to the crumbling fort of apathy Surrounding, oh dawn I miss you so very much When you’re gone, things are duller I prefer rejection over the impossible And if I wait for the sun to disappear I might just feel the atmosphere I turn my back to swelling despair But I keep the lights on Here's my excuse for all the things I can't express to you Once we held ambition, a vain hope to feel some embrace A soft warmth will steal my breath and crash into the cold earth Or a grave, I can't feel human in an open space I don't need your love I don't need your patience I don't need your harm If I did I'd ask for you To come back with me Or go somewhere different Wouldn't that be nice? Wouldn't that be nice? Wouldn't that be nice? Wouldn't that be nice?
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All That Gets You Hurt Will Get Erased 03:53
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Everyday the silence chokes the pain You stalk your reflection for what remained Circling the drain until you’ve nothing left All that gets you hurt will get erased One day I’ll feel hope A sensation to bury me cold If I could face you I’d tell you what I could hold Twenty two fires burn across the bay I have nothing to assure me that I am safe I keep all this hell in a tiny room That I come back to To suffocate One day I’ll feel hope A sensation to bury me cold If I could face you I’d tell you what I could hold One day I’ll feel hope A sensation to bury me cold If I could face you I’d tell you what I could hold Nothing I’m better off dropping the weight I’m better by myself
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Blood-test Dolls 03:40
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I watch as my life is torn out of my hands What is disease but an ornament to please a pretty death? I know if you leave I just might blow this civil breath Everyone tells me that this must come to an end All that you’d say to me All that you’d say to me All that you’d say to me Wouldn’t cut this tight rope around my head I watch as your life is torn out of your hands I won’t be sad if it will make your nightmare end All that you’d say to me (I love you more than you understand) All that you’d say to me (I made this drive with a thousand plans) All that you’d say to me (I will never break this dependency we’ll mend) Wouldn’t break this dependency we’ll mend All that you’d say to me (I love you more than you understand) All that you’d say to me (I made this drive with a thousand plans) All that you’d say to me (I know I can’t end this incessant ache in your head) Wouldn’t end this incessant ache in my head
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Lovely Little Sparrow 02:21
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What should we defame today? We could grab tight the fears we share Turn them into affairs Until the flashes dull in despair I give this a couple more years Before the moment slips And we’ve lost control And we are back in that hole I will love you with the best of my heart From now until that dark And little late starts And little goodbyes Begin to fail
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The First of May 04:55
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The first of May I went swimming Across the waters swelling antipathy I found I was surrounded by Endless valleys, occasional ravines And I felt ecstatic, I almost cried No tides could let me drown this time I don’t mind If there’s something wrong with me But I will abide If there’s something more you see And I felt it at dusk That the earth’s become weathered Then everything had settled The first of May, there flew sparrows Across an expanse of air and land The moon shone a silver light My feet felt the bed of sand I don’t mind If there’s something wrong with me But I will abide If there’s something more you see Is there more to this Then writing bad tragedies? Admit you’ll forget me I don’t mind If there’s something wrong with me But I will abide If there’s something more you see I don’t mind If there’s something wrong with me But I will abide If there’s something more you see If there’s something more you see
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Usual Loss 04:10
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I told him that I would be Gone by the end of the year Everyday’s a new kind of shame That pays for the past fears ‘Cause yesterday was black And if today’s not grey I swear to whatever there is… It doesn’t matter anyway Hope’s a withering flame Sewn behind dead black eyes It’s a long goodbye “Aren’t you half inclined to stay?” It’s my fault, I confess I was the one who made this mess You can hate me, take what’s left Or I will, or I will In my mind, she’s still there By the windowsill In my mind, she’s still there But the feeling’s gone It couldn’t have been more Then a half an hour Before I found that dead dog Dragged by the collar And if it’s gone Was I bound to fail? If I weren't around Would you wait to bail? It’s my fault, I confess I was the one who made this mess You can hate me, take what’s left Or I will, or I will
8.
White Statue (Gardener Observing Existential Dread) 02:30
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Last night I had a dream about you Every word rehearsed through- A scream no one ever hears Three years have passed you Dragged down Just a burden at your door And no one ever cares I'm locked out And no one seems to be there Come sweet eternity ‘Cause I still love you ‘Cause I still love you Last night I swore you passed me by Like sunflowers caught in twilight Yet these walls keep daylight shrouded Yes, I fear I am stranded Come sweet eternity ‘Cause I still love you ‘Cause I still love you
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September 29th, 2016 03:00
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The ocean’s glossy surface Churns violently The large wonder Amplified Deafening I see distortions in their faces I see sunlight, apparently Family names that mean nothing Scribbled in the finest detail Far away from anything stable A little plot of soil Let’s talk for hours Sketch our images upon the concrete mazes Forgotten patterns I don’t care about what you’ll do I want to go home

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This is a compilation of tracks written between 2016-2020.
These are some loosely put together tracks that will not be on an album, but I wanted them out there nonetheless.

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released December 27, 2020

All songs composed by Jasmine Bradley
Jasmine Bradley: Vocals, guitar, keys, bass, drums, mixing and producing
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Sharbel Chater: Bass (1)
Remy Bradley: Drums (1, 7)
Aaron Langdon Drums (3)

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Gardener is an indie project created by Jasmine Bradley. She is based out of Nova Scotia, Canada.

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